Thank You, Lady Gaga

First, a warning. I'm departing a lot from my usual gaming and related posts. Instead, today, I want to talk about something very personal. You know how the media's been all abuzz about Lady Gaga's recent weight gain? You know how she responded with a new section of her social media site that included photos of herself and the confession "Bulimia and Anorexia Since I Was 15"? Yeah, we're talking about body image issues and what that entails. You've been warned.

I feel like a bitch...

So, last night, Durok comes home and he and I have a conversation that turns into an argument. Not the typical I want to get married, he doesn't argument either. It was a new one...kinda. Started with my "I want to be let in emotionally and you keep me at arm's length" (which I believe is why I keep wanting to get married) and his "I do that to cope with your ups and downs". The argument ended up running the gamut from there to "are we really partners in this relationship".

Then, I go to check whose place the bi-weekly D&D game is at, and I find out that the game started an hour and a half earlier than the calendar entry read. I email the entire group knowing someone has a Blackberry explaining the situation as best I can when I'm sobbing upset (I lost the numbers of the people we play with, or at least those I had). I get a message this morning from the GM saying that "I forgot" is a "slap in the face" reason not to show up. So, I emailed the GM to explain the situation in full: I hadn't checked my email in days (almost a week); when I realized we would be late and didn't know whose place it was at, we waited for a reply or phone call; when we didn't get a phone call for almost half an hour, we figured no one got the message so we spent some much-needed time together; and, since I was extremely upset, I did not explain the full situation in the mass-email.

Is it the Bipolar that made me stay up till 4:30 one morning cleaning and then be a crying bitch the night after? Or is it something else?

(Edited because I mis-clicked and posted before I was done typing)

Psych Evaluation, End of the Term, and More!

Psych Eval:

So I went to a mental health clinic last week to see about getting help in that regard. The evaluator showed some concern, but she's not overly worried. I have another appointment scheduled with an actual psychiatrist in a couple weeks...don't know what to expect. As strange as it sounds, I can't wait to be on meds to balance me out. I'm so tired of the ups and downs.

End of the Term:

Tomorrow marks the end of the term at school. I'm worried my 4.0 GPA may get lost. I'm showing as .25 points short of an A in one of my classes, which would bring my GPA to a 3.8 overall. I hope my Final Exam, post test, and 2 research assignments makes up for the .25 points.

More:

I have been playing with making polymer clay flowers. I've gotten pretty good at roses and some forms of lilies, but nothing super realistic.

I'm terrible at blogging

Yes, I know, I haven't posted in a while. I could come up with excuses, but I won't so...

In my news, I have been handed an unconfirmed diagnosis of my mental condition. Bipolar Disorder, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, and Attention Deficit Disorder. I have done my research, and it all sound plausible. If I am all of the above, so be it. Also, I'm pulling a 4.0 GPA at school with near-perfect attendance. YAY ME! I think...guess that makes me a schoolgirl, no?

In other news, found this...it's called the "Shit Box". Yes, it's a box you poop in.